Hi

I went through my last post and compared it to what I might write on this one and, wow, I didn't really have anything going for me this year.

I think, so far, I got to know some people I tried to care about. But this one person somehow did not want me to care, and I did try to contact them a few times with no answer, so that's that. It kinda pains me when I finally am open to someone and they don't appreciate it. Well, I'm not looking to start a special relationship with this person but maybe they see it that way. I now think it is really best to keep to myself because people misunderstand even when I am genuinely, straightforwardly telling them I'm here to listen and they think there's something else. Are people allergic to frank words? Can't you just appreciate what is in front of you?

I did try to think that this is just me feeling this way but when I look at the big picture, some people are just assholes, so I'll accept them being that way, let us part ways and be off with our own lives.

Some backstory here; I met this person through a friend and I didn't notice them at first but said person kept messaging me and I did not bother to entertain, but somehow I finally replied. Things went fine and I found out person is really fun to hang out with. We had some inside jokes and so on and suddenly a third person came into picture (some misunderstanding, and wau some privacy violation going on here it's crazy) and I tried to give some nice words to person. Then, suddenly, person cut contact, no longer said hi. I just feel appalled. Person made me feel happy and content and suddenly person upped and went away. It's a shame when I tried to salvage the friendship that person started with me, person did not care. Ha, I feel immature calling person 'person' lol.

I guess that's it. I tried, but person did not reciprocate. I wish everyone could honestly tell what they feel and not be silent. It doesn't work when only one party is being honest.

I'm just confused here.