can you hear me?
Ha! That song is stuck in my head.Well, hello there it's 2016! It's a new year, new air and same, somewhat increased in weight, fatty me! So today, I'd like to reflect on how 2015 was for me, improve myself and go forward with positive vibes! A great start for my 1st January 2016 morning! (ha! I'm so excited you can't stop me with my exclamation marks!) !!!!
Oh I just realised I didn't recap my 2014, I don't know what I did last two years. Nevermindlah, that's history. Let's start!
January 2015
I didn't do anything!
February 2015
I don't know what I did!
March 2015
Haaaa? I bought my gaming rig this month. Hell, that was a big purchase.
April 2015
Hmmmm...
May 2015
Okay final exam is next month, so I started grinding here..
June 2015
Final exams!! and my Singapore trip with Mira!
July 2015
Hmm...
August 2015
....
September 2015
..........
October 2015
Better do better this semester I'm gon' kill these two papers but wait, Steam is having a sale. Better buy all these exciting games and continue playing dota only.
November 2015
A month full of doing past year questions. and I finished Wolfenstein: New Order this month. Best FPS game I've played.
December 2015
Final exams! Whatever, I did my best let's enjoy this short holiday with time wasting games! and there another Steam sale! Final Fantasy XIII is 50% off!
Hmm, okay so... that's all? This is a bit sad haha. Nothing majorly exciting except that Singapore trip. Okay, no worries. This is life. So let's put a note to go on more outings this year and enjoy life more.
But I guess I can write a bit on things I've learned last year
1. It's okay to be an asshole. Life will be more pleasant, although somewhat tense in some parts.
2. Do not care about what other people think of your attitude. You're not the same person to them as you are, to yourself. It doesn't matter.
3. If I don't like how things are, I'll say it even if it may hurt people,or trouble them (if what they do troubles me too)
4. Reading is good, no matter in what form. Just keep reading.
5. Have expections, make sure they're met. If not, tell how you feel. So people will know to keep up with it and you'll feel better.
6. People change, even family members.
7. Crying is good. Especially for someone like me, who keep things to myself.
8. Everyone is a good person, it's just the quirks that makes them not.
9. Always have a 'benefit-of-doubt' thinking. It helps with anger.
10. Words of encouragement is useful.
11. Don't leave surplus money idle. Invest them.
12. Respect yourself, and make sure other's know to respect you.(read point three)
13. No is enough. No need to elaborate, just 'No'
14. It's not okay to use force when angry. (I once broke my favourite touch bedlamp, I'm not doing it again)
15. Being a muslim is not a restriction. Read more, learn, watch, reflect, implement.
16. Keep track of expenses. It's time to learn to do so.
17. It's cold, bring that sweater, or maybe a heat pack to the exam hall. Numbed cold hands aren't good for writing under time pressure.
18. Try to notice surroundings, there's more to life than the floor or straight ahead. So much for 'tundukkan pandangan' education. It's not taught the right way and I regret not realizing this sooner.
19. This is a filler, read with wisdom.
20. At times I feel lost, remember Allah. Just remember Him. Everything will be okay.
I'll stop at 20, there could be more but I was 20 years old last year, so, there.
I know some of these are vague, even I think so too. But maybe I'll learn what it actually means to me later. I was somewhat selfish last year. It wasn't very pleasant being a selfish person but it needed to be done because some people are not reciprocating to my tolerance. Hopefully this year I'll get to be a more pleasant person to deal with.
What else? Hmm. ACCA..
I failed my F7 twice last year. Retaking for the third time this coming June. am still waiting for my F8 & F9 results this 18th January. F8 I'm fairly confident but for F9 I'm not sure. I'm supposed to start my professional papers this sem but I don't know. Depends on whether I pass last sem's papers. I don't really know if I want to pass actually. I've been having this lingering feeling, not wanting to move on. So I'm somewhat letting myself fail. I don't know how to write this feeling. But hopefully this year this feeling will go away and I'll properly focus on finishing my papers by next year (2017).
There. I'll stop here. All my excitement at the beginning of this post is gone lol
Here's to a wonderful 2016, Bismillah.
